Why I’m Not Where You Are - The American Scene
It’s been so long since you and I could be alone.
And I’ve been torn between home and where my heart is.
Our slow dissolving distance,
And the chords I mix my voice with.
You said, “kid you seem down enough for the both of us,
and you knew better than to start that game.”
So I spent that night with my tongue tied, wrapped up in a strangers name
And everything changed but I still swore we’d stay the same.
Growing up made us ghosts trapped inside the stories we wrote.
But we were still kids when this got away from me, away from me.
There’s nothing keeping me anywhere, anymore.
And I’ve been thinking we’re better off, but I’m never sure.
I took my heart across state lines.
I fell apart hoping I might find
Something left behind from the last time someone tore out my insides.
Resolute but weak at the knees,
Weathered and withered into a different me.
From wanting nothing more than to be anything you need
And all I needed was one good reason to say I had to go.
In this city it’s easy to forget your way back home.
So this is home away from home,
On your couch and on my own.
Just sleeping it off, feeling this all
Over and over.
I think we both know where this ends.
Still I keep writing your name in every city I see
Just to feel that you’re a part of everything you swore that I could be.